I am struggling with some inner person thoughts that are hard to elaborate on but I will try my best. How do I become content with the things that I have? Another way to put it, how do I accept the way that I am? I have a friend who excels at a lot of things that he does (we were in a computer networking course and he was much better at it then I and I consider myself above average at it) and yet he is completely content with living at home with his parents working a dead end retail job. This guy could be making $100k+/year easily if he continued with the rate at which he was absorbing and tackling the stuff we were learning, but he is still completely content with the way he is living right now. Yet, here I am, struggling to continue on my path of self-improvement. I understand that I will never be the best at something and that I am not that great at other things but I still feel this strange feeling of wanting to improve even though I see no real improvement in the thing I am working towards. It feels frustrating to know that I have so much self worth and that I am smart/capable enough to be doing better but I always make these stupid or sometimes unnecessary mistakes in whatever I do and it always sets me back in what I am doing. For example, I got a speeding ticket while on my provisional drivers license and got it suspended with the only ability to commute to work and school. I don't mean to speed while driving, I just get comfortable and enjoy the control of the car and forget to monitor my speed. I am by no means a reckless driver but I just do these stupid and unnecessary things that ends up fucking me over somehow. I wish I could just slow everything that I do down and work through it instead of being the way that I am. It makes so flustered when I do this because I KNOW that I can do this task and that the task is easy but I still make a mistake. Is this just over-confidence? Do I need to be less confident and be more critical? It's hard for me to tell and it makes me feel uncomfortable or sad to have to ask about this stuff. I don't know what's wrong with me. Sorry for the wall of text. Hope you can forgive me.